i hate when I feel awkward

I rather just swallow thoughts in and avoid talking to people, because the thought of confronting people other always makes me feel so uncomfortable and awkward inside. I'm not sure where this fear of confrontation came from, but it has always been there.

That's why I had my very very very brief "cutting" stint back in middle school. But, luckily, I stopped real quick because I was too afraid of the pain that would ensue from cutting. Just because I felt mistreated as a friend. So foolish, right? Yes.

I can't believe I only thought of myself in these past incidents. I should've realized the bigger picture. I'm really sorry.